Saturday, November 29, 2008

Well, Thanksgiving came and went with much food and some friends. The week seems to have sped by at a rapid pace. It is time to pull everything together for the last group of pilgrims for the year. As 2008 comes to a close I am left with an odd feeling... mixed feelings too. While I really do enjoy the work I do, I just am not feeling the love. In other words, I do such a consistently good job that no one seems to take notice anymore. The fear that has everyone worried has not helped... so the economy is down the drain. Those who should be worried are the CEO's and Owners of companies... they are the ones not making the extra 5 million this coming year like they had hoped. If they invested poorly, they may even lose a million or two. So I ask why is the average executive so upset? If you make less than $250,000 a year you will not even notice... After all you not being able to buy the new Lexus next year is really low on your CEO's worry list...if at all.

The real truth is that this is the times when savvy people make more wealth for themselves.

Enough with the economics lesson... my feelings of neglect will lead me to a more profitable position for myself. When I am happy I do not look for new opportunities...shame on me... when I am unhappy like now, I look each and every day for something better. As much as I like what I do... there is always something I will like better out there if I just look for it.

My advise is never burn your bridges (wolves are not chasing you) but do not be afraid to cross new one.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


A spy must have been listening at the inn in Southwark, called the Tabard! We are undone by their treachery or their careless gossip. It matters not which now in this late hour. Yet with much additional hard work our event may be saved. For an event we will have and all others shall fall short in compare.

Hail! Our Ladies of the hour who will right this deed most foul. An event, an event we still will have!

"Whan that Aprill with his shoures soote
The droghte of March hath perced to the roote,
And bathed every veyne in swich licour
Of which vertu engendred is the flour,
Whan Zephirus eek with his sweete breeth
Inspired hath in every holt and heeth
The tender croppes, and the yonge sonne
Hath in the Ram his halve cours yronne,
And smale foweles maken melodye,
That slepen al the nyght with open ye
(So priketh hem nature in hir corages),
Thanne longen folk to goon on pilgrimages,
And palmers for to seken straunge strondes,
To ferne halwes, kowthe in sondry londes;
And specially from every shires ende
Of Engelond to Caunterbury they wende,
The hooly blissful martir for to seke,
That hem hath holpen whan that they were seeke.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

This is Fall! It is odd that this year so many of our friends are heading out to do non-traditional Thanksgivings. Cruises with the family, vacations without family, or just celebrating with friends. For the last four years for me and the last 8 years for Brian tradition was not the same. Mom made the holidays for my family and without her it just has not been the same. I know for Brian it is much the same. I have vacation the week of Thanksgiving but am not looking forward to it. It will be a home coming but home was never a place I overly enjoyed. Yes I miss my friends and some of my family and some of the places that remind me of childhood good time I once had there. This is a time of giving thanks for all that we have and hold dear... this year it is difficult to remember that and to remember those things in our life that we hold most dear...and no money is not one of those things... no matter how many friends think that is all I care about. Odd that most of the things I am thankful of are my memories. Fond memories, dear friends, and the light from within those are the things I am most thankful for this season.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Two days ago I had a very unfortunate case of mistaken identities. Have you ever noticed how much the Eggnog and Egg beaters cartons look alike?

I love Eggnog and like a cold glass of it in the mornings...well two days ago I must have been a little too sleepy still, because I poured myself a tumbler full of what I was sure was Eggnog... A few seconds later I knew something was to right as I bent over the kitchen sink coughing... The first thought was "so that is what eggnog taste like when it turns bad" The truth hit me as I reached for the carton to see the expiration date and realize that it was egg beaters not eggnog... I think that made me even sicker.

So be warned! Eggnog and Egg beaters are not the same.

Friday, November 07, 2008

First let me start by saying this is going to be a rant!

I do not care what any one's opinions are concerning same-sex marriage. The only opinion that concerns me is my own. After reading a yahoo news link about the legal battle over this issue and seeing a map of the US with all the states that have band same-sex marriage in one way or another marked in red, I am now seeing red! It is a sin for everyone of us that can read and write not to learn from our own history... to not see the same mistakes being made again and again... to listen to and follow anyone (including our Presidents and other leader...including religious ones too) that teaches, preaches, or wants us to HATE! Yet a majority of Americans are doing just that.... sinning and following the twisted logic of those spreading hate.

Slaves faced these same thing! Supporters of slavery used religion. the Bible, fear, and yes, hate to lead others into supporting their views... Slavery way supported by as many pulpits as plantations in the South!

The right to vote was denied the fairer sex based on and supported by the same groups! A good wife stayed at home and keep her house clean, raised her children, saw after the needs of her husband... and had no business worrying about politics... that was for men... they would not understand it.... the bible says they should stand by their husband so they do not need a separate voice because a good wife supports her husband... Preachers, husbands, and politicians all supported keeping this right and this power from them... saying it was right because it is in the Bible!

Inter-racial couples... same thing (even though we in the US had millions of inter-racial children from slavery) It was ok to sleep together, just not marry outside your race.

Equal pay... still fighting that one! but you do not hear about it anymore because it widely considered wrong and anyone doing it is a racist, sexist, or something worst... so why is the average pay for minorities less for the same jobs... Why do women on average make less for the same job and hold fewer high paying jobs than men in many fields like Science?

It is wrong to discriminate against anyone! And yes I am being discriminated against... Even though, Brian and I have been together for 12 years, I have yet to receive the same tax breaks a heterosexual couple has received for 12 years... we can not take each others name without paying for a legal name change... we have to have detailed legal wills to insure if one of us dies the other will inherit... we still after 12 years are not considered a family by the state and federal government that we pay taxes too.

So why should we stay and support a state or country that neither serve, nor protect us... in fact ... they have both worked very hard to pass law and amendments to discriminate against us. England supports us.... Canada does too... and we could gain citizenship anywhere we wanted....

So I do not care what any ones opinion is on this subject... I view anyone that has a differing view than 100 % zero discrimination as a sinner themselves, a bigot, and a spreader of hate. I have no room for discussion on the issue of same-sex marriage... and while I maybe polite and not say it to your face...I have said what I think here.

I am being discriminated against!

It is a fact for me not just an opinion.

Thursday, November 06, 2008



Yesterday was one of the longest days! After leaving Atlanta in a 15 passenger van that had bad shocks and a shaky driver at 6am .... we arrived for our company's retreat, team building, "what brown can do for you", time to reflex and plan... other wised known as Destin, Florida. I grew up by this place so it was no big surprise, but everyone kept going on about the beaches... well for all my Florida friends this is it! It is a sand-bar in the bay... not on the gulf and not really a beach... no sand castles did I build. The condo was very nice even if they did pack up 4 to a condo (three bed room condo) sorry for the guy on the sofa.... maybe next year man. We had our state of the company talk yesterday and there was really nothing new and last night we had the recognition dinner... it was all sea-food...with one chicken dish. The meal was fine the sales teams worm introductions were heart felt, but the rest was just a little over the top... ok that was an understatement. So afterwards I had two glasses of wine and a beer to easy my spirit and slipped away from what appeared to be an all nighter at Harry T's around midnight. It was good to just get away from the crowd that really included many I would never invite into my own home (followers exception). And now I am getting ready for what I am sure will be a fun filed day of team building craziness.... yea me!

Monday, November 03, 2008


I have a follower! I know a few friends read this blog and I get the odd comment here and there, but know I have someone that has stood up and said I follow this blog... well I have heard she has an addiction... but I do have to say I like the new feature... or old one I never knew was there. I can follow others blogs now.

It is funny how blogs have changed. When I started, late in the game as it was, I wanted everyone to read my ideas and views on the world around me... now I have just put both my facebook and myspace accounts to private... and deleted many friends that were only people I had worked with. It was like a light bulb coming on... I would not want these people in my home, why would I want them to know what I share with my friends and family. There are very few I work with here in Atlanta that I would invite into my home. Sad to say that I have many more co-workers that live from Seattle to DC who are welcome. This fact is reflected in many ways with my work. The local company I work directly with has changed so much in the last 8 years. Unfortunately, the changes are not for the good. When I started in 2000, people really cared about and mentored each other and their staffs. Their culture was more than words... you did not have to be told what it was you could see it in each person, in each action the company took. What the company was doing was communicated to each person at the same time. Everyone was proud to recommend the places and things we did. Those days are only memories now for the few that still hang on... hang in there.... hoping that things will improve... that the spark will return again. Now the company is all about profit first and foremost. At the expense of everything else... their culture, their people, their dignity... none of that matters now. 90 days of "vacation" every five years can not make up for no pay increases for 5 of 9 years I will have worked for them, December 2009 when next I can receive an increase. It is not all about the money even though this is a business for me as well as them. Like any business venture, there comes a time when no matter how much you love it, you have to move on or go under. I have never been one to run a business into the ground... not ones I have managed for others nor ones I managed for myself.

That time is here now.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

There is nothing better than a fresh new fire to warm your hearth until spring. ummmm warmth!